Old Helen Knows

Have you ever been to a Jazz club? Last night I went and was surprised by Old Helen. She is looks in her 90s. I’ll tell you about her in a second. As I stood and sat by my table I looked around observing and looking at everyone. The majority were aged from 25-45 maybe 75%. The rest were older. There was a group of four sat in front of me. One lady with a very funky sense of style, wearing a black Cleopatra haircut and massive smile with her blonde laughing friend, could be seen laughing and singing all night. Facing them were a couple that looked all lived out. I would say they were average people, aged around 45-50. They looked much older. They were grey, looked miserable and dull. They were clearly a couple yet the distance between them was huge. They knew they shouldn’t be together. She sat hunched looking at the lady singing and laughing almost hypnotized with not a flinch on her face. He sat looking down, forehead frowned, grey, lifeless and almost dead. I wondered as they looked so unhappy had they attracted each other as a perfect match or had they simply been lived out and given up waiting for death? Either way, they looked miserable. Then came a moment of spark. The grey couple pulled out Christmas gifts and handed them to the ladies without breaking a smile, almost asking for a pat on the shoulder. The ladies jumped up, went around the table and kissed, hugged and thanked the couple. The couple looked almost frozen as this took place. The ladies then got out gifts and handed them back. The grey couple just sat and smiled for a second with a thanks to follow. The law of attraction in action, wouldn’t you say? It was a great night. Then directly next to me was an old couple. They walked in late, her name was Helen. I knew her name was Helen as her husband kept saying it out loud. She was old, very old. If I had to say what she looked like I would say looked Jewish with a sense of beauty and style to match. She had no hair, just strands. Her neck, and fingers were dressed in gold. Her clothes screamed quality. I could see this was once a beautiful lady to look at. She clapped and sang along to Billy Holiday songs all night, knowing the words and maybe even living some of the sad and happy lyrics of love and loss herself. I noticed some looked at her as ‘what’s the old lady doing here?, yet this lady oozed wisdom and wealth. I thought about her, a lady in the final days of her long life. What had she been through? Where had she come from? What has she fought and won? Does she look at young lovers and reminisce of her past loves? Her mistakes. her choices, her triumphs? Clearly a lady this age had experience and wisdom to match. I watched her as she looked around at this generation powered on fame, glory, the need for adoration and significance. She must have been thinking about how she could teach them a thing or two. There was a couple in a corner. They never said a word to each other. Helen looked at them and I could almost hear her saying… ‘life’s too short for that’ I could feel the power of experience radiating from this woman, old, frail, yet beautiful in everything. And the point is this … It takes a lifetime to discover how to live. The old lady can look back and say ‘why, just go with the flow of life and life will take you’. Because that is what life does, it takes us to places and things we experience. Unfortunately the fights we fight with ourselves are fights based on what we are conditioned to feel and think as we grow. We fight life, we fight loves, we fight dreams and why? Because sometimes they don’t fit the expected mould yet the mould is based in repeatist behaviours and teachings of a system that only cares about itself. We want to do something but it is out of the ordinary. When I say out of the ordinary we are thinking I can do this but what will others think? Yet their thinking is always based on what they have been conditioned to think over their own life. Yet as old Helen has shown, life is an ongoing experience to be lived. To join the flow and enjoy the flow as it takes place. Yet we over analyze, we take advice, we refer to our conditioned teachings from the few years that we have been alive and act on what we know. What we are taught to be normal, regular or mainstream. Even those outside the mainstream created their own NEW mainstream with rules and regulations based on NEW repeatist behaviours or conditions. Yet we also know what feels right. We know what makes us feel good, wonderful, amazing. Yet still we ignore those things to ‘fit in’ with a society that is based on man made thoughts or on our NEW adopted thoughts based on NEW repeatist behaviours. It’s deep inside of you. You were created with the power to know for YOU and what is best for you. Do you take decisions that don’t feel goods yet you go with them? You are ignoring the power you have been given to guide YOU! Have you felt something was right yet gone against it to fit in? You are battling your inner being. That inner person when rejected cannot work along with you. Because you are out of harmony with you. When you are out of harmony the song of life is out of tune. Why is out of tune? Because we are living our life again … by the conditioning of men. Part of you is going one way, part of you is going the other. The part that has the ability to give you genuine happiness is the part you usually go against. Interesting right? Conditioning hasn’t been divinely created, it has been created by those wanting to make you, keep the line, keep the peace, stay in order. A look back in time to when Helen was a girl it was different. If it felt right, they went with it. They trusted themselves more. They could feel through their intuition if it was right or wrong. They focused more on their own happiness. Helen will tell you as she look around the Jazz room and people dismiss her as the old lady people were better for it, happier and more fulfilled. Helen has a story that she shared with me. She told me about her love in the war. Helen as it turned out was Jewish. She survived horrors of a war designed to destroy her race. During the war as a young lady she met a German soldier. He was much older, he was supposed to kill her kind, he was a German. Helen loved him, he loved her. The pressure was huge to stop the love. It seemed impossible. It felt like the end of Helens world. They both knew themselves inside. They both could tune into what was real. They both understood what felt right or wrong. Helen knew when her parents found out they would go crazy. The soldier knew if his commander found out he would be shot. Yet the seemingly impossible mountains could be climbed but only together. And only if they followed their natural law of attraction to each other. Helen knew this was her man. She wasn’t going to give up. He knew also. He wasn’t going to give up. She escaped to another country. All she had was a photo of her man. She never let go of him, not for a second. If she had to give her life to be with him at any point she would. Helen understood the power of finding love that was eternal. It was her man that got her out of the country. He promised to find her again. Fours years after the war as she lived her life in Switzerland a knock came on the door. She opened the door, it was her man. The promised had been kept, they loved until he died. Helen found love again. The lesson here was this lady, this man, they understood that love is something that can be as rare as the appearance of a comet. It flies through the night sky only to be seen once in a lifetime, never to be seen again for another 100 years. More important … they both understood that sometimes you don’t need to be told … you just know. They followed what they knew and found happiness in it. I shivered as she told me this story. I cried, shed a tear and realized a lot of things in that moment. Helen has taken a lifetime to learn to live. She has in her head what we all want, yet it can’t be removed. Yes sure, we can listen, we can learn but as I look around the room at the ‘moment generation, I wonder can people apply this stuff? How lost we are. How we have forgotten to trust and rely on our inner knowing. I know this. Decisions that are sometime taken by over relying on outside forces, conditioned thoughts or opinions of others can lead us down a path of formality. Formality of this world removes our long term happiness, it sucks out the joy of living and the pleasure of being alive. The grey couple proved that. Is that what you want? Helen see this all the time, a generation of people chasing the unreachable, defying their hearts, their truths and their lives. They have forgotten how to find themselves. Chasing the conditions of new and old thoughts, never accepting themselves as knowing. We carried on enjoying the band. Before I went I asked Helen a final question. If you had one bit of advice to give me what would it be? Helen replied… “Forget what anyone, anything, offers or says … you always know, don’t ask too many questions, you’ll know and follow what you know” Do you know? I think you do.